Faith

I used to believe but then nothing happened. My wishes and hopes were torn apart. I didn't understood. I wanted to believe, to have faith but there was no reason. Everything was alwys the other way I wished it to be. Then questions borned in my mind: Jesus are you there? Why me? Why do I never obtain what I what?
But there was no answer, so I stop. I stop believing. Things never happen the way I want to. I just stopped having faith.